| twelve; 25th October 2025; there was a barber and his wife |
[25 Oct 2008|09:28pm] |
They haven't been back for a while. Almost -- has it been? ...Yeah, almost two months. I don't know which is worse, though, between having them and not, because now it's been the dreams. Always the same theme, never the same incarnation twice. Last night, Antonin made an appearance. Was quite comforting to see him. Night before that, Bellatrix. Night before that, Regulus and Rabastan at the same time -- mystifying pairing, really; can't fathom why the two of them would be together in a dream. Was Rodolphus a bit ago -- him, Graley, and Walden, but it was surprisingly not terrifying. There were pineapples and party hats and Rodolphus was uncharacteristically enthused about the cake. Suppose it's better than dreaming things that have already happened, though. Last time I did that, it was the masquerade again, until it all fell apart and got very dark and surreal and uncomfortable.
Just makes me think -- there are so many old things that get applied to me. Some so-called scholar whose name I don't care to think of right now thinks there's, "Not a chance in Hell that [I] can change [my] old ways." Several 'concerned mothers' had their spokeswoman ask, "How long would it be before [I] got up to [my] old tricks again." Some layperson or other had to ask, "If [I'm] as immersed in old institutions as [I am], who's to say any change of course could be safe" -- which is a bloody laugh because the oldest thing here is Aloysius, who's both safe and far from traditional. That's one thing that's never seen fit to change: ignorant people still talk the loudest and with the most confidence.
Oh, here's an old trick. Severus, Pepper, Aloysius? Remember this one?
How can you prove whether at this moment we are sleeping, and all our thoughts are a dream; or whether we are awake, and talking to one another in the waking state?Plato. And it really bears considering: if I'm really as bad as all the things that people say, then what about the people who aren't as frankly honest about it as I am? Not meaning to point fingers where some people are obviously going to point them for me, but the lot of you trust people who are much worse than I ever dreamed of being. I won't deny that I did terrible things, but at least I thought that I was doing them for something more than just satisfying some sick urges or other. At the risk of sounding like a relic: in my day, we committed heinous atrocities because we thought they meant something.
Except for Greyback. But Greyback's one thing the world's unquestionably better off without. Shame I couldn't ever get him to consent to being the subject of a research paper, though. That would've been groundbreaking. Disturbing, but groundbreaking.
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| eleven; 3rd October 2025; what's in a name? |
[03 Oct 2008|09:04pm] |
Wilkes-Crouch? Wilkes-Crouch?! What in the devil is that- I can't even believe-
Aloysius, I need warded comments. For us, Kshathra, Pepper, and Severus, please.
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| ten; 2nd October 2025; in pain, in need |
[02 Oct 2008|09:07pm] |
Aloysius? Pepper?
Did something happen to Kshathra?
There was blood...
I'm going to look.
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| nine; 1st October 2025; the world's greatest criminal mind |
[01 Oct 2008|02:49am] |
Here we are, then, Severus. Twenty yes or no questions, you have to be honest, game ends when I run out of questions or deduce the identity of your lady-friend.
First question: was she a vigilante?
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| eight; 29th September 2025; and all the while i think of you |
[29 Sep 2008|04:08pm] |
( VERY PUBLIC, but also long )
I'm so tired of all this fighting down here. And I don't speak Tamil.
Don't ask. I took the goddamn potions, but I know you won't believe me.
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| seven; 26th September 2025; one of these things is not like the others |
[26 Sep 2008|12:16pm] |
Today should be Opposite Day.
I'm having holiday spirit and writing backwards. I could also not take my potions, but-
Just think -- an entire holiday dedicated to completely inverting social order and having fun while doing so. Tomorrow can be Uptight Prudes Day as a reaction to all of the anarchy from today.
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| six; 15th September 2025; i read the news today, oh boy. |
[15 Sep 2008|09:06pm] |
I miss the old days of purported journalistic integrity.
I mean, sure, Xeno Lovegood was a bloody nutter, but at least his stories didn't hurt anybody.
I mean, unless you actually went looking for the crumple-horned whatever.
But then that was your own fault, really.
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| five; 11th September 2025; four legs good. |
[11 Sep 2008|02:08am] |
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I found a rat. Can I keep it?
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| four; 5th September 2025; crawling in my skin |
[05 Sep 2008|10:48pm] |
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They're not real.
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| three; 20th August 2025; i think you're funny when you're mad. |
[20 Aug 2008|08:55pm] |
A young man was in love with two women and could not decide which of them to marry. Finally he went to a marriage counselor. When asked to describe his two loves, he noted that one was a great poet and the other made delicious pancakes.
"Oh," said the counselor, "I see what the problem is. You can't decide whether to marry for batter or verse."
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| two; 13th August 2025; listen as the wind blows. |
[13 Aug 2008|01:26am] |
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I taste colours.
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| one; 9th August 2025; if i cried me a river of all my confessions. |
[09 Aug 2008|03:20am] |
Aloysius got me a present. I can't remember the last time I had a journal that wasn't being read by someone down here.
Well, I really suppose this isn't much better. And people from down here are reading it, so the only quantifiable improvement is that other people are reading this too. But talking to people outside of the basement is supposed to be good for me. I think fresh air would be good for me too, but I think that, in general, people find this proposition disagreeable. Ten minutes -- five, even. That is all I want.
I miss birds. Aloysius was telling me that they found a new species of magical bird somewhere in Southeast Asia. He was not particularly specific, but I suppose that would have been hard, given that we were having this talk over the weekly physical fussiness to see if anything has changed since last week -- which it still has not; the whole process is really quite tedious, but it is for posterity, so it is somewhat more tolerable -- but apparently the new birds are quite lovely. I just have to wait for Monday, I think. Or earlier, if Aloysius finishes with the magazines earlier. I just hope that the birds do not look like peacocks.
I would rather like to be able to use wards for this as well. I'm told that other people are permitted to use them, but when I asked, Aloysius gave me that face that says that we were not going to have that discussion.
He makes that face rather frequently, it seems.
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